burn out the day burn out the night

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
but no one would listen, cause no one else cared

after my dreaming, I woke with this fear
what am I leaving, when I'm done here

so if you're asking me, I want you to know

when my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
help me leave behind some, reasons to be missed

and don't resent me. when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

"I have depths that Chuck will never plunge,

but I know every inch of his soul"
"Well, that's too bad"

i would give anything to go home.

She's so good to me
Our hands, our mouth, our body
Boys in the back are making fists
'Cause they don't understand
none of this.

i am hurting.

now I'm trying to tell you about my life,

and my tongue is twisted, more dead than alive
and my feelings, my feelings, they've been betrayed

ich vermisse dich so sehr :(

• Made brody sleep on the floor, still the same girl up there, thank gooodness.
• DAAAAAMNNN GIRRRLL. UNCE UNCE UNCE, DAMN YOUZ A SEXY BITCH , A SEXY BITCH
  
• Had a really good time for 2 days in a row, im thinking if i keep doing new things, maybe i will forget, and be happy again. Just maybe

aww ffs :(

summerwind.

• Aida, please wake up from this nightmare. anytime now.
• Stop attacking me. The outcome wont be pretty.
• d.twizzy http://nl.tinypic.com/m/5ph57a/1
• Say "nighty-night" and kiss me. Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me. While I'm alone and blue as can be, dream a little, dream of me.
• 

You looked my way and said "you frustrate me"
Like you're thinking of lines and times
When you and I, were you and me
We took our chance out on the street
Then I missed my chance
And chances are it won't be coming back to me

doch du verstehst nicht

1. Today at the hospital, I met what must be one of the most beautiful souls on this planet. It came neatly wrapped in the body of a 60 year old romanian woman. I will never forget her as long as i live. If people strived to have 1/100th the heart that she has, we would live in a very different world
   
2. I dont even recognize me right now.
3. I am home in bed alone. Safe and unsound.
4. 
   

Do my foolish alibis bore you, well Im not too clever - I just adore you

THOUGHTS:

• Today is my second attempt at work in days, I'm sick, my heart is heavy. I don't want to pretend I am okay, whilst im told how much better off I am now. It is not better. I am going to cry.
  
• I am proud of myself. I am not drinking. I didn't before, I'm not going to when things get a little hard. I refuse to be that weak.
• Ive been listening to Sinatra. My name pops up in a lot of his songs. This makes me smile, right before it makes me cry. "Life is Aida". I ponder this thought. Ill get back to you when I decide what it really means.
• Been thinkin, my ticket home next spring, may be a one way. This is not the place for me. I belong in a small town, happy, and far away from everything people here think is life. Ive finally realized, that is enough.
  
• Whenever skies look gray to me and trouble begins to brew
  Whenever the winter winds become too strong
  I concentrate on you

• 

throw on sinatra, sit in the tub and cry.

• 
  Ill be seeing you;
  In all the old, familiar places;
  That this heart of mine embraces;
  All day through. Ill be seeing you;
  In every lovely, summers day;
  And everything thats bright and gay;
  Ill always think of you that way;
  Ill find you in the morning sun;
  And when the night is new;
  Ill be looking at the moon;
  But Ill be seeing you.

• What good are words I say to you?
  They cant convey to you whats in my heart
  If you could hear instead
  The things Ive left unsaid

We said "When you are alone and afraid I will come to your aid"
Well was it just a dream, just a dream?
Because it was real to me

Always laugh, always live.

• This world we live in finds enjoyment in being cruel. Whats happened to showing kindness to strangers? Doing something daily in attempt to make someone else happy? Nothing weird, nothing expected in return. I mean helping someone in need, giving a homeless person change, smiling at the people you walk by? Cherishing what we have? laughing.. manners? Thinking before you act and putting things into perspective? What a sad sad state.
• Aida had a breakdown tonight.
• "People are only mean when they're threatened, And when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself."
  

rabble rabble.

1. Im not broken, I do not need to be fixed, everyone can just save it
2. Im starting to hate you. So much is getting to me.
   
3. I do not like walking anymore, don't like running, don't like stopping in the middle of the park to cry. Its starting to really hurt.
4. "my biggest pet peeve wit the world is that people don't realize that in order to be in a relationship you have to work at it each and everyday, and the duration of your relationship will depend on the importance you place on it. People that want to be together, can make it through anything. I think this is why divorce rates are so high, people are lazy" - D.

I hate having this ability to remember EVERYTHING. Specific things and days and everything that is said to me, play like a broken record in my mind. I need a forgetting disease or something.

If there would be anywhere in the world I'd be with you,
it would be a bed, any bed. A boat drifting across the carpet lava.
A place where nobody and no thing could take you from me, my arms around you, whispering sweet things under the blankets, like it's some big secret that the world isn't even fit to know, not till the morning anyways, when the sunlight drifts across your skin, capturing every thought ever had about anything decent.

I never want to feel like this again.

I am worthwhile,
I just dont want to keep trying to
convince you of that, if you cant see it for yourself.

all we are and all we need to be, is grateful.

I do my thing and you do yours.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
and you are not in this world to live up to mine.You are
you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other,
then it is beautiful. And thats that.

You are the best, and the best deserves the best.

want.

<3 !

But I’ll save it for later
Cause I’m a terrible moderator
On what’s happenin’
I don’t know where to begin
I’ll save it for later
‘Til I get a little more creative
Cause just sayin’ it, won’t make it right

I don't wanna fight, I would rather kiss you

honey honey know what you do to me

i cant think i cant act the way i used to be. got no choice. just your voice sends me through the roof. im a mess, i confess its because of you. shook me up so easily,baby spin me like a smooth breeze

I'm not used to it
But I can learn
There's nothing to it
I've never been happier
I've never been happier

what aida wants

• to lay around and kiss you and kiss you, be happy in the moment, doesnt get any better.
  

this makes me think of you.

need.

this is a city for not sleeping; the clocks are set by feel.
at this moment, from where I sit, none
of it seems real

jajajaja so wise.

Micheal says 6:00:11 PM: dude i obviously sang bohemian rhapsody cmon
Micheal says 6:00:16 PM: this like on the stage spotlighted
Micheal says 6:00:23 PM: im kinda drunk btw sry if i sound retarded

"Look, other bands, they want to make it about sex or pain, but you know, The Beatles, they had it all figured out, okay? "I Want to Hold Your Hand." The first single. It's effing brilliant, right?... That's what everybody wants, Nicky. They don't want a twenty-four-hour hump sesh, they don't want to be married to you for a hundred years. They just want to hold your hand."

Strain this chaos, turn it into light, I've got to see you one last night, before the lions take their share. Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere.

Hi first day of august!

• im really stoked for today, quality time, <33333
• somedays, just somedays (most days) i could swear, you are better than icecream <3
  
• for once i want to be completely selfish, but i cant be
  

You're a dreamer and dreamings what you do,

I didn't think i would relax at all this weekend
after the stressful week I'd had. Turns out, its not so hard to run away for a weekend and escape. I'm so glad Alberta isn't completely useless and has this lake here, heaaaven.

ps. hello boating and water related activities;
you are the new love of my life

I'm changing skies for you

• aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah screaming, im so happy, lalala, lalaaaaaaaaalalala, youuu aree amaaazing<3

• Hey you
  Have you felt like this before?
  You got style but ain't got soul
  Are you happy now?
  Are you happy, tonight?

it'll work it self out, juust breathe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HlaqgcGfS0I

friday on ma mind

i cant even explain, what a smile you put on my face. Tonight was the most amazing nght, in a long time, i hope they dont stop. I hope i can make you smile, as much as you make me smile <3